I covered my face and retorted in pain, “That’s ridiculous.”
“I’m not telling you because I don’t want you to misunderstand your mother. She was a very poor woman. We left the Kee family together when we were 17, and it was intended that we would be allowed to leave when we were both 20. But there was a lot going on in the family, someone had poisoned my food and Uncle Kee was so worried that he thought it was a sign from the jungle that everyone hadn’t given up trying to find me.
To protect me, Uncle Ji had Yanyan come to Tongcheng while I went to England. Originally, Yanyan came to Tong City so that Yanyan could come to the Jiang family. Tong City was the home base of the Jiang family.
The purpose of this is as you can imagine, the Jiang family and the Ji family joining forces might be able to suppress all those who have ulterior motives.
Jiang Ming has long had designs on Yanyan, but the man is not right-minded and Yanyan cannot see him. He kept pestering Yanran, and once Yanran was saved by your father, which is why Jiang Ming and your father would have a feud.
You can guess the only thing that happened. When your father found out about me and Yanran, he came up with a plan to divert the relationship between the various clans of Jianghu. If the great families of the Jianghu were to defend themselves against each other, there would no longer be any possibility of uniting to persecute a particular victim.
I have to admit that your father was very clever, and for all these years, all I could think of was to take Yanran far away to America, or to England. But he came up with a way to deal with the jungle. As you would have guessed, he found Ge Lao, who was quite prominent in the Jianghu and was supposed to be the person the government used to keep the Jianghu in check.
Your mother is ill and can’t remember many things very well, I only learned about this when she got married.”
I asked, “What illness?”
Han Kun looked like he was telling a story that had nothing to do with him, but he couldn’t hide the sadness in his tone.
“There is a tumour in the brain that is pressing on the hippocampus, it was small when it was found, but it is inoperable and can only be treated conservatively. The tumour was pressing right on a very important blood vessel and if it was cut out it would have killed him.”
I opened my mouth and was surprised that I couldn’t speak.
Han Kun said, “You know what happened afterwards. The Ji family had an early siege and lost a lot of people, but later retreated out of Tong City under the protection of Jiang Yunqing and went to Yuzhou. The Ji family had a tradition of living in seclusion, and with this seclusion, no one knew where they were completely. Your grandfather, Gu Bu Mi Yun, the last child of the Yin family, that is, my identity, appeared as three possibilities. One is your mother, one is me, and one is still in the Ji family.
Everyone in the jianghu knew that the Ji family had an axe to grind, but after that siege, the Ji family became less intimidating and people who started hitting on the Yin family’s property began to do so again.
At that time, Ge Lao’s life was in danger and he was dying, and many people in the Jianghu were also foolish to move.
Then one time, someone came after your mother and almost hurt you, and your mother got really scared and took you with her to stay at the Thoughtless Mountain for a while.”
This I still remember, when I was little my mother told me that she took me along to stay with my father at the Thoughtless Mountain in Ningcheng because he had to go there on business.
I didn’t realize that doing business was a lie and hiding from disasters was the real thing.
Han Kun said: “Your mother’s body has been controlled with medication, the control effect is not too good, the tumor is still growing, only the speed is not too fast, and there has been no metastasis. Your mother has always been a very strong person, her desire to live is very strong, I don’t know why she would suddenly make …… a request like that.”
When he said this, Han Kun choked up, and I couldn’t see his face, but I guess it wasn’t much better.
I can’t understand what my mother did, if she had been killed by someone else, I would have avenged her, if she had died of an illness, I would have mourned her, but I can’t figure out why she would do that.
From the diary, there was nothing wrong with Junran’s business at the time and the company was thriving.
So I couldn’t figure out why my mother would suddenly decide that.
In the penultimate diary entry, my mother mentioned that my grandfather had been very mean to her and that only two days had passed before my mother decided to commit suicide.
Could there be a connection between the two?
I asked Han Kun, “Did my grandfather come to see my mother between now and then?”
“I’ve read this diary many times since I got it, and I don’t know what it means on the 8th of July. The last time I was contacted should have been the last time I contacted Yuma after Uncle Ji told us to leave and not to contact me. It would have been five years before this diary.”
Since my mum would have written it down, something must have happened and my grandfather must have contacted my mum in between.
Could it be that he said something that caused my mum to think about it?
Seeing that I was silent, Han Kun said in a low voice, “Xiaochao, don’t think nonsense. Your grandfather, he’s not a bad person.”
“If he really did something to cause my mum ……”
“Then what? Are you going to take revenge? Beat him to death?”
I said, “What then? Just let it go? That’s my mother! Han Kun, don’t you want to take revenge? Your family was wiped out, don’t tell me you never wanted revenge.”
I can’t stand it, every time I’m on my high horse, talking to me with a saintly face.
All the bad people I have to forgive, so is there no cost to doing evil?
Everyone should stop being good and just be the bad guy, take advantage and have fun!
Han Kun dwelt for a while, and in the darkness I heard his breathing get heavier.
I said, “What you think now is what I think. Go away, I don’t want to hear any more lectures from you, I’m a normal person, I’m not a robot, and I’ll hate.”
With my expulsion order, Han Kun stood up and I deliberately didn’t look at him, I couldn’t stand up to see him off anyway with my broken leg.
I felt that Han Kun was in a bad mood and could vaguely sense his murderous aura, which he usually hid so well.
Han Kun walked to the door of the room, pulled it open and then stared there.
“Xiaochao, I know who my enemy is, but I’d rather I never knew.”
Leaving such a headless sentence, he pulled open the door and left.
With a bang, the door was slammed shut and the room returned to pitch black.
