“What the hell is it?” Trish asked.
I said, “A few pages of notes on Han Kun’s body, keep this a secret and don’t let any other people know.”
Zhao Xiaoliu immediately stood at attention and gave me a crooked military salute, looking quite presentable with a straight face.
Chu Xiaoxiao glared at me, pinched my ear and said, “Good for you, you let Zhao Xiaoliu steal something? If Zhao Zichen finds out, he’ll be furious with you.”
“You can’t tell anyone about this, it has to be kept a secret.” I thought to myself that Zhao Zichen wouldn’t know about it anyway.
And this time I realised that Zhao Xiaoliu was just as talented as Yue Man Gong, so he might really be talented in this area.
Of course I wouldn’t teach him to steal, wouldn’t that make me the head thief? But training him to be a scout would be fine.
Zhao Xiaoliu looked at me with anticipation and licked his lips, “Captain, can I eat KFC then?”
“Of course you can, let Sister Chu take you there.”
Chu Xiaoxiao rolled her eyes at me and whispered against my ear, “You owe me this favour today, wait until you pay in meat in a few days.”
After saying that, she even licked my earlobe, making my heart beat faster all of a sudden and I could not wait to hold her back now.
Unfortunately, I couldn’t move this leg for months, and if I had to put up with it for so many days, I was really afraid I would suffocate.
Chu Xiaoxiao took Zhao Xiaoliu out and carefully locked the door for me, and only then did I take the pages out.
Before I opened the pages, I took a deep breath, unable to make up my mind for a while.
Han Kun didn’t want me to read this, so I figured he would wear such an important thing close to him all the time, so I let Zhao Xiaoliu try to read it secretly, but to my surprise, I really let Zhao Xiaoliu steal it.
The paper was already a bit yellowed, and it was many years old.
I had mixed feelings, a bit like the old saying about being close to home and feeling more shy. It was a diary written by my mother, as if she was talking to me.
Honestly, I’ve almost forgotten what my mother looked like and sounded like. Ever since I was little, Zhang Mei forbade me to keep any of my parents’ things, and she would destroy anything that had anything to do with my parents.
There was nothing special about this paper, just a few pages torn out of a normal B5 notebook.
I opened it up and on each night there was some writing. The writing was very elegant, written in a black pen, probably damp, and the writing was already a little blurred.
A strange feeling spread through my chest, and before I could read the contents, my eyes were wet and my throat was clogged with a stone as hard as it was.
There were six pages in all, each with two days’ worth of diary entries written on the front and back.
I looked at them and the dates were not consecutive, only the date was noted, not the year, but the dates were not consecutive, I don’t know if it was because my mother didn’t write in her diary every day or if she was picking and choosing when she tore them off.
Anyway, there wasn’t much content, some of it was only a few simple lines, so I started reading from the first page.
June 25 Sunny
I left Kee’s house as my father had asked me to.
From now on, my family will have even less contact with me until they never do, to ensure that the stand-in plan will work.
Many people do not understand and I cannot understand.
But Father can do no wrong.
30 July Heavy rain
Arjun and his father had a fight and his father was furious.
After dinner, my father called me into the study alone for a lecture.
My father had rarely lectured me since I was 16, and he said that Arjun had brought me up badly.
Was that really the case? I was now confused.
Arjun says I can be selfish and don’t have to give my whole life for others.
But my father says I’m too selfish and that the Kee family can’t be that selfish. Who should I listen to?
All I know is that what my father said about Arjun was not right.
Arjun is a good man.
Reading the first page, I was really a bit confused. The two days of the diary were written on the same sheet of paper, and that order should have been linked together.
Arjun is my dad, Zhang Jun. I don’t know what kind of conflict he had with my grandfather, but my mum seems to be on my dad’s side.
And what is the meaning of the stand-in plan? Why did my dad tell my mum to be selfish ……
There’s no end to all this, I don’t understand it at all, I might have to read on to get the general idea.
Jan 20 It’s cold
Arjun’s injury is a little better, but he still can’t move around.
He laughed when I changed his medicine, saying that Yue Zhengjun had lost even worse, his eyes were red from the mace.
I had given the spray to Jun, and I was afraid he would call me mean, but to my surprise he kept complimenting me.
Arjun is different from anyone I know, and it’s a pity that my father doesn’t like him too much, but it doesn’t matter, I’ll never have a home again anyway.
Today Han Kun came to see me, out of hiding from my family.
He’s back from his studies in England and I hear he’s doing a degree in law abroad. Arjun said that I should go back to study next year. He always has a lot of whimsical ideas. My father does not support my studies, and there are few journeymen daughters who study either.
But Arjun said, “My father doesn’t want me anyway, so I’ll be an own-account person from now on.
21 January
Met Ge Lao.
This is on the second page and I am still confused by what I read.
And the key topic related to Ge Lao is only recorded in one sentence.
Ge Lao was related to the whole jianghu, and I a felt very strange why Ge Lao would be so relieved to entrust the suicide note to my mother. Even if the suicide note did not exist, I wondered why my mother had the trust of Ge Lao.
Then came the third page, which, judging from the handwriting, should have been a long time ago, as the handwriting had changed a bit.
29 August Bad weather
Han Kun refused to leave and he kept apologising to me and telling me not to hate him.
But I don’t hate him. Should I hate him?
Arjun always says that my father has gone too far, I don’t know, all I know is that life is not so bad now and I am happy with Arjun. If I had stayed with the Kee family, maybe I would have had to marry someone I didn’t like and not be as happy as I am now.
I don’t know if the Yin family are good or bad people, but from a young age my father told me to protect this person.
The last child left behind by the Yin family back then, no one knows if it was a boy or a girl, it could have been me or Han Kun.
Arjun asked me if I knew what the real meaning of a double was.
Of course I knew, I just didn’t want to think about it. I don’t feel sad, everyone who lives has his meaning.
My meaning is to replace Han Kun so that he can live a normal life.
This is what our Ji family owes the Yin family, and I’m going to pay it back for the Ji family.
1 March Spring Warmth
Ge Lao’s health is getting worse.
A rare call from his father says that someone is again secretly investigating the last of the Yin children.
This child has taken away a great deal of wealth, and a gentleman is not guilty of harbouring it.
Why pretend to be righteous when it is the Yoon family’s fortune they are trying to rob?
I was stunned and could not react for a long time, looking at the pages, the language was calm but it seemed to me no less than a heavy bomb.
I also finally knew why Han Kun had to get these pages back.
Han Kun was the last child of the Yin family back then!
When my mother was still alive, no one knew whether the last child of the Yin family was a boy or a girl. My grandfather came up with the odd trick of having my mother and Han Kun swap identities. When my mother became an adult, he deliberately made her leave the house and wear everything that had to do with the Yin family, while also cutting ties with the Ji family, all to make everyone misunderstand that she was the Yin family.
It was so ruthless.
