After sending the message, I raised my eyes and saw Shen Yu looking at me motionlessly, “Are you leaving?”
I nodded, “It’s getting late, I should go back.”
He pursed his lips, “Good!”
The lobster basically ate nothing. I put it away and took it away.
On the way, seeing that I hadn’t said much, Shen Yu opened his mouth and didn’t spit out a word for a long time.
Only when we finally reached the Shanshui Residence did he look at me and say, “After New Year’s you promised me you would return to Huai’an, do you still count?”
I froze for a moment, “Yes!”
He nodded, the car stopped, looked at me and said, “Go back!”
When I entered the foyer, the lights were still on in the villa, Fu Shen Yan was reading a book on the sofa, when he heard the movement, he looked back.
Then he put down the book and his gaze fell on me.
Looking at him, I hesitated for a moment, then walked over and sat beside him, taking the initiative to rest my head in his arms.
Sensing that go mood was low, he put his arm around me, his voice warm, “What’s wrong? What’s wrong?”
I looked up at him and narrowed my eyes slightly for a moment before reaching down to unbuckle his belt.
He held me down fiercely, a laugh in his voice, “Be reserved, this is the living room, in such a hurry?”
I pursed my lips, didn’t say anything, and pulled him ready to go upstairs.
He picked me up and went straight upstairs.
Noticing that something was wrong with me, he frowned, “What’s wrong?”
I pursed my lips for a moment, not knowing what to say, and then looked up at him, “When did you do that?”
He furrowed his brows, “What?”
His face sank and there was something serious in his voice, “Who told you that nonsense?”
My eyes were a little red and my voice choked, “Did it hurt?”
Looking at me, he laughed a little and pulled me smoothly into his arms, saying helplessly, “It’s just a small operation, it doesn’t feel like anything.”
I wrapped my arms around his waist and said with some difficulty, “I’m sorry!”
“This minor surgery won’t hurt me, besides we have four seasons now, we don’t have to think about the baby, there’s nothing to be sorry about.”
His voice asked, smoothing my long hair, taking my hand and sniffing it, “What did you eat out there?”
I pursed my lips, “Crawfish, Shen Yu bought them, there are some more, I brought them back, do you want to eat?”
He looked at me and answered, “I want to eat you more now.”
I froze, looked at him sluggishly for a moment, and almost subconsciously got up and went into the bathroom.
The water under the shower was still hot, so I stood under it, rinsing myself to death.
Outside the bathroom Fu Shen Yan knocked on the door, his voice low and commanding, “Shen Shu, come out!”
I pursed my lips, my heart still clogged with pain, and took a deep breath, crouching on the floor with my body in my arms.
My tears were broken, and I couldn’t control myself at all.
Perhaps after what happened last time, he had changed the bathroom door in advance so that even if it was unlocked, he could still open it.
He came in, turned the shower off and looked down at me, his eyes scarlet and his gaze red.
I buried my head between my legs and spoke with some desperation, “It can’t be helped, it can’t be pa*sed, it just can’t be pa*sed, there’s no way for anyone to let it go.”
He squatted over me, raised his hand to smooth my messy hair, and sighed slightly, “Shen Shu, people can’t always live in the past, and we won’t always live our lives the way we want to, but I will try my best, try my best to live my life the way I want to, and just let go of the occasional pain, no matter what you’ve been through or what you’ve become, I love You, and as long as you remain you, we’ll keep trying to go on.”
I looked up at him and opened my mouth, unable to say a word.
After a long time, he pulled me up, dried the water stains with a washcloth, carried me out of the bathroom, placed me on the bed and soothed me, “Close your eyes and get some sleep!”
He got up and went to the bathroom, and within a few moments the sound of water running in the bathroom was heard, and I lay on the bed, unable to close my eyes.
My heart was clogged with pain, even if it was a thousand wounds left after being stabbed countless times.
They were all old wounds, and with the slightest breath the wounds cracked open and then began to spread in dense pain.
It was still early, so Fu Shen Yan came out of the shower, dried the water droplets on his body and lay down on the bed to read a book.
I couldn’t sleep and didn’t want to do anything.
After a long time, he put the book down and looked at me sideways, “What are you thinking about?”
I opened my eyes, looked at him and pursed my lips, “Fu Shen Yan, when are you going to pick it up!”
He narrowed his brows, “Eh?”
“I’ve looked it up and it says that the ligature ring is bad for your health if you wear it for a long time, you’re a man and you’re the only child in the Fu family, if grandpa knows, he’ll blame me!”
I knew he was doing it for me, but it would be too costly. Even if we are forward thinking, we are still living in this land after all, inheriting the wealth and learning of our ancestors, and we are not qualified to rely on our own will and say no to it.
What is it for us to live in this time if we cannot perpetuate our culture and our lives?
The man’s body temperature was extraordinarily high, and his hot temperature was extra warm against me, “Shen Shu, we are not that great, we don’t need to think about so many people, all you need to think about is yourself, about the child when you get better later, we can discuss whether we want it or not, okay?”
I pursed my lips, feeling guilty after all, and slumped into his arms, my voice muffled, “I seem to be living my life in more and more chaos.”
“It’s not messy when you have me, don’t think too much about it!” He wrapped his arms around me, his voice warm and calm like everything was fine.
That night, he just put his arm around me and did nothing.
The next day.
When I opened my eyes, it was still dark, so I thought it would only be four or five o’clock.
Fu Shenyan was still asleep, and I wanted to close my eyes again to sleep, but I never managed to fall asleep.
So I stared at the ceiling, but the sides of my head hurt like pins and needles.
I couldn’t help but sit up from the bed, my waist was wrapped around Fu Shen Yan, his eyes were closed and he was still sleepy.
His eyes were closed and his voice was low-pressure.
“Nope, going to the bathroom!” I spoke, slightly removing his hand, getting out of bed and making a trip to the bathroom, followed by a gla*s of water.
It was clear that nothing was wrong and it wasn’t a good idea for me to stay up like this, so I rummaged through the bedside table.
I’d gotten a lot of sleeping pills from the doctor earlier in order to fall asleep.
“Looking for what?” Fu Shen Yan opened his eyes, his black eyes dark and bright.
I pursed my lips and spoke, “Looking for something …… that woke you up?”
He shook his head and reached out to pull me onto the bed, “I threw the medicine away, Jun Yu said it was extremely dependent and you shouldn’t take it often.”
I let out an enunciation, my brow hurting like hell, raising my hand to pinch, my whole being extraordinarily irritable, “I’ll just take it once!”
If I don’t eat again I’ll crash, every all-nighter and the next day I won’t be able to control my emotions.
His eyes deepened and he reached out to floor me tighter, his thin lips landing on my eyes and kissing them lightly all the way down.
Perhaps because of the late night, so originally already have breast milk, but yesterday to today, but I do not feel at all.
Fu Shen Yan also noticed it, his voice hoarse, “Pick up the four seasons at night.”
I pursed my lips and subconsciously raised my hand to push him away and was pulled by him.
This action, too ……
He lay back, his eyes warm, “Try?”