The sound of footsteps came from the bedroom, and Fu Shen Yan’s tone of suppressed anger came to my ears, “Shen Shu, what are you crying for?”
I pursed my lips, not intending to respond.
The covers were torn away from him and the light was a little blinding.
He sulked, “Are you going to smother yourself to death?”
I really didn’t want to talk to him and looked at him with an extremely ugly face, “Fu Shen Yan, can’t I vent my emotions? Have you ever asked me how I feel?”
He wrinkled his eyebrows, “Are you uncomfortable?”
I really wanted to strangle him, looking at him and gritting my teeth, “You can’t feel it?”
He pursed his lips and blushed, “I’m taking you to the hospital!”
My heart held its breath, I picked up a pillow and smashed it towards him, “Get out!”
Fu Shen Yan ……
The bedroom door was closed and Fu Shen Yan left.
I lay in bed with my eyes closed, unable to sleep, my anger not subsiding.
Sister-in-law Zhang brought up food and said in a somewhat timid voice, “Xiaoshu, will you get up and eat something and put on some medicine before you go to sleep?”
“No need!” I was not in the habit of disliking people and losing my temper for no reason, so my tone was just cold, no other emotion.
She paused, but still said, “Xiao Shu, Mister just went out and instructed you to eat more or less, and if you really don’t feel well, just put on some medicine and get a good night’s sleep.”
“No!” I wrinkled my eyebrows, a little angry.
She put the things she brought up on the table, and when she turned to leave, she looked back at me, and after a pause, she added, “Xiao Shu, sir is actually quite good to you, I grew up watching him, he grew up with the old man, he doesn’t know how to take care of people, the way he thinks is to solve problems, the old man raised him as a successor. He may not know how to treat you the way you want to be treated sometimes, but I can see that he has been attentive to you over the past year. ”
After a pause, she continued, “Originally he was going to come up himself just now, but he knew you were angry and didn’t want to see him, so he asked me to come up; you’re a couple, you deserve to understand each other, you like each other, you can’t fight and hurt your feelings over something trivial.”
I was so tired that I gathered my emotions and spoke, “I know, sister-in-law Zhang, you go ahead and get busy, I want to sleep!”
She said everything she needed to say, looked at me and nodded, “Okay, you remember to eat something.”
After saying that, she left.
I lay on my bed, my eyes half-closed as I looked out of the window, it was winter already, the winter in the capital was dreary and drizzly, such weather was really not suitable for healing moods.
Every inch of my body ached, I couldn’t sleep, and I had no appetite for food.
I didn’t want to move or talk.
I was staring at the ceiling in a daze. I couldn’t be happy that Lu Xinran’s baby was gone, my mind was in a mess.
I was so irritable that I just wanted to get a good night’s sleep, but the more I tried to sleep, the more I couldn’t.
After a few repetitions, I struggled to get up and went out onto the balcony.
Opening all the windows, it wasn’t raining much outside and the cold breeze entered the bedroom. I was awake for a few moments and my body ached so much that I simply sat by the window and let the rain and cold breeze blow in from outside.
Outside the villa the leaves were all gone, leaving bare branches, lonely without the birds to patronise them.
The rain was getting heavier and heavier, and as my body was being blown around for a long time, the irritation in my heart was gone.
I leaned against the window, closed my eyes slightly and prepared to take a nap.
But time pa*sed very quickly, I vaguely feel like I was about to fall asleep, but I did not want the bedroom door to be opened.
Fu Shen Yan was all chilly and saw me on the balcony, making the whole bedroom cold.
I sat up straight as he looked down at me from above, the sleepiness that had been brewing so easily gone.
He stepped towards me sharply, his voice lowered to suppress his anger, “Shen Shu, what are you doing?”
His eyes sank to a frighteningly deep tone as he pulled me off the balcony and into the bedroom, “I’m making you this sick? Do you have to torture yourself like this because of this? You’re setting yourself up for chastity?”
I had been up all day and night, I didn’t have the energy to argue with him, I just felt like I had no energy, my whole body was groggy, I raised my eyes to look at him and then dropped them.
My mouth was unbearably dry, and when I glanced into the bedroom and saw that there was no water, I gave up.
Seeing me like this, he gasped and laid me down on the bed, closed the window and turned up the heating in the bedroom.
My clothes were already all wet and it was a thin nightgown, so he found one and re-dressed me, wrapping me in the quilt.
Sister-in-law Zhang also followed me up, and when she saw the situation, she said in a smaller voice, “Sir, is madam all right?”
Fu Shen Yan did not look well and said, “Go and pour her a cup of hot water and reheat the dinner.”
Sister Zhang nodded and went downstairs.
After tidying me up, I lay down on the bed and Fu Shen Yan lifted the covers.
I froze and pressed his hand, “Fu Shen Yan, you ……”
“I’ll rub your medicine!” He spoke, his gaze cold.
“No, I’m fine.” I opened my mouth, really feeling my throat hurt a little.
He sank his gaze, “I’ll rub it or you’ll rub it yourself, one of two choices.”
I became angry, “Fu Shen Yan, are you finished?” I was already tired, and this made me extra irritable.
He pursed his lips and nodded his head, “So, I’ll do it?”
I was already in pain and annoyed with him, and now this was really making people angry.
He didn’t notice as he got up and was violently pushed to the floor by me, “Fu Shen Yan, can’t you just leave me alone? I’m annoyed now, I told you to leave me alone, are you deaf, can’t you hear me?”
After saying that, I lay back down on the bed and pulled the quilt to cover myself up.
It had been a long time, a long time since I’d been like this.
I knew it wasn’t right, but I had no control over my emotions… I couldn’t help it!
I had thought Fu Shen Yan would just leave, but I didn’t expect him to pick me up, moving gently, “It was my fault last night, I shouldn’t have been like that.”
Holding me in his arms, his voice was hoarse and deliberately lowered, “Be good, don’t be angry, wait until you’re better, if you’re still not relieved, beat me up hard, eat first, eh?”
Sister-in-law Zhang brought up the food, three dishes and a soup, “Sir, madam, the food is ready!”
Fu Shen Yan nodded his head and spoke, “You go first!”
Sister-in-law Zhang left and Fu Shen Yan picked me up in his arms, moving very gently, and walked me towards the table.
Letting me sit on his lap, I had no shoes on, and he let my feet fall directly on his shoes.
It was a bit like coaxing a child, “Sister Zhang’s cooking smells good today, try it.”
He really didn’t know how to coax, he fed the dish directly to my mouth and spoke, “Be good, take a bite!”