After the a*sa*sination of Feng Guangyu, Qing Yu found that he was actually idle all of a sudden, with nothing to do.
As for the Northern Zhou dynasty, although Feng Chaonan has not yet become the overseeing prince, judging from the results of his activities, the chances of success are high.
After the death of the eldest prince Feng Guangyu, some of the wallflowers who thought Feng Chaonan had lost power have started to eat their way back towards Feng Chaonan.
On the Si family’s side, they have likewise increased their support for Feng Chaonan, seeking to push him into the position of overseeing the imperial throne.
As he had already taken Feng Jiu’s position of power and was expected to fill the gap of the overseeing prince, Feng Chaonan immediately became a hot commodity.
The fact that Feng Chaonan is riding high is exactly what Qing Yu is happy to see. In other respects, there is no need for Qing Yu to deal with the situation in Northern Zhou.
Although the families that had defected to the Cang Sheng Sect were still being purged, those small minions did not need to be personally dealt with by the Dragon Head.
So, with nothing else to do, Qing Yu had no choice but to study martial arts.
Luckily for Qing Yu, he was already very patient with martial arts and had the habit of practising whenever he had time.
Although he was only in his twenties on the outside, the impetuousness and recklessness of youth had been worn away in Qing Yu’s previous life. In the beginning, if not for the great hostility generated by years of house arrest, Qing Yu might have had the decision to stay in the mountains until he was invincible before coming out.
So, Qing Yu planned to have a short retreat to grind out some time.
However, unexpectedly, Qing Yu came straight out of the retreat after half a day.
It wasn’t that there was an accident or something else, but rather that Qing Yu could feel that the retreat would not bring him any benefit for the time being.
Yes, it was intuitive, and Qing Yu knew that, at least in the near future, there was no way to gain any benefit from the retreat.
“Unlike other people, Qing Yu could visually observe his own progress, even if it was just a little bit, he could still notice it.
In this retreat, however, Qing Yu could not see any progress.
The reason for this was that Qing Yu had encountered a similar bottleneck. The reason why I say similar is not because Qing Yu is stuck, but because Qing Yu’s current method is not quite right.
Having used the “Mountain Sutra” to observe his own heart early on, Qing Yu was not confused about seeking his own path in the middle stage of divine origin, and simply followed the path he had chosen long ago.
This led Qing Yu to the end of the middle stage of the Divine Origin realm in a smooth manner, and he began the final cultivation of the Divine Origin realm.
He would practice his own thoughts, his own chosen path, integrate his own outlook on life and worldview into his own martial dao, and unfold the final dao path of the Divine Origin Realm.
Well —— to put it bluntly, there is a sense of realising a dream.
In this path, the mind and the true qi resonate, the two merge, there is no distinction between you and me, and where the mind goes, the qi goes. In this process, the mind is also sublimated.
In this process, mere seclusion and hard work is not acceptable. In this cultivation of the realm of intent, bitter cultivation is ultimately just an empty thought; practical action is needed to quickly advance the martial arts refinement.
“But I’ve been doing this all along.” Qing Yu did not know whether to cry or to laugh.
His heart’s ambition was to keep aspiring for higher ground.
His life was to climb to the top, to rise endlessly. Until the time when he reaches the top of the mountain, when he can see all the mountains.
The heart revealed when he first practised the “Mountain Sutra” was proof of Qingyu’s dream and ambition. He wanted to be the one who fiddled with the universe and mediated creation.
And if he wanted to be such a person, it was only natural that he would need great strength. The pursuit of strength was always at the forefront of Qing Yu’s mind, and he was always striving for it.
He had been practising it all along, but why did it begin to stagnate here?
Thoughts raced through Qing Yu’s mind, and his mind aided his brain in its movements to find the cause of the stagnation.
Unconsciously, Qingyu’s gaze began to lapse, and the endless loftiness of his eyes became apparent as he entered a state of “observing the way of the heavens”.
In this state, Qingyu’s mind was clearer than ever, and he reflected deeply on himself, analysing his various emotions and thoughts.
“The reason for the stagnation, why is it ——”
“If I want to be the one to reach the top, I need the determination to go forward ——”
“To go forward without fear – or otherwise ——”
Memories, thoughts, little by little, were dissected, and Qing Yu understood himself like never before, seeing everything about himself thoroughly.
Time pa*sed little by little, and soon, Qing Yu felt his mind began to be a*similated into a form, and the “Way of Heaven Watching” state was almost at its end.
“I can’t hold on anymore. ——” Qing Yu muttered, “But I have found the reason.”
When his eyes closed and opened again, Qing Yu’s eyes were incomparably bright, he had found the reason why his mind had stopped.
“Nowadays, although my fame resounds in the north and south of the country, and Gong Zi Yu’s prestige flourishes, this fame is ultimately that of a bronze mask, and as far as I myself am concerned, I am nothing more than a coward who dares not show his face.” Qing Yu paced from side to side as he slowly said.
Coward, Qing Yu had never thought that he would have this attribute of cowardice. No matter how one looked at it, he did not match up with cowardice. Far from it, just the recent a*sa*sination of Feng Guangyu in the imperial palace and the previous deadly confrontation with Dragon Tiger Mountain proved that this was a cowardly person.
But on the other hand, Qing Yu was also working under the waistcoat of Gong Zi Yu, his real name, Qing Yu, could be counted on one hand by those who knew it.
“No, my real brokenness is actually not cowardice, but lack of bottom, lack of security.” Qing Yu once again dissected the change of emotions in his heart.
Cowardice is not actually wrong, proper cowardice is the basis for a long life. What Qing Yu really lacked was not the courage to reveal his true form to the world, but the lack of security due to his own lack of strength.
Although his strength was already surging, the enemy he faced was far more than a hundred times and a thousand times stronger than himself, and he could only play with his mind and act in secret.
“I didn’t expect that I had created a breach because of such a little slip of the mind.”
As Qing Yu shook his head, he was able to directly kill this small distracting thought with the “Celestial Being Transmigration Method”.
It is a paradox that insecurity about lack of strength leads to a lack of progress. It is better to use the blade of the mind to kill such a doubt in the mind.
“I can’t believe that my lack of strength has created such a ridiculous breach, I’m still not strong enough after all. Whether it’s true strength or cultivation in the mind.”
