With some fear still in my heart, I didn’t stop in the car park too long and started the car straight back to the villa.
Things were piling up in my mind.
When I got back to the villa and entered the lobby, I saw the men reading the information in the hall, and the sounds of those men and women intertwining came to my mind.
“Vomit ……” Too late to change my shoes, I ran straight into the bathroom and plopped down on the sink to dry heave, having already thrown up quite a bit earlier, I couldn’t throw up at all at this point.
“What did you eat?” The man’s low, cold voice came to my ears.
I shuddered, my stomach was uncomfortable, he walked up and lifted his hand to smooth my breath, the voices of those people in my head became more and more repulsive, I jerked my head up and pushed him away.
Ignoring his cold, icy face, I ran straight up to the first floor.
Locking the bedroom door behind me and smelling the disgusting smell in the bedroom, I walked all the windows open again and changed all the covers and sheets on the bed.
“Knock knock ……” There was a sharp knock at the door, “Shen Shu, open the door!” The man’s voice was cold and chilling.
I had all the sounds of men and women intertwining in my head, and my stomach and heart were so hard that I rejected all the sounds outside the door.
I desperately tried to get rid of all the scent of him in the bedroom, and when I was done, I felt disgusted by the smell of myself, so I undressed and went into the bathroom, turning the shower on as high as it would go, desperate to clean off all the places he had touched.
“Bang!” A loud noise sounded outside and I hunkered down in the bathroom, locking the door behind me, knowing that if Fu Shen Yan wanted to come in, he would have a million ways to do so.
Sure enough, it wasn’t long before he slammed the door outside open, his voice rough and cold, “Shen Shu, what are you doing?”
He stood in the bathroom doorway, his voice low and warm with anger.
I pressed against the door, not wanting to hear even the slightest sound from him again, “Fu Shen Yan, I don’t want to see you, please, please stay away from me!”
It was disgusting, it was really disgusting, if I hadn’t heard those voices, I could have numbed myself, but at this point I couldn’t, no matter how many times I convinced myself not to think about the images of him and Lu Xinran intertwined, but, my mind was repeating those things over and over again.
“Shen Shu, open the door, let’s talk face to face about what’s going on!” His voice was cold, so cold that a layer of ice could form.
I shook my head, my heart and stomach still unbearable, “We have nothing to talk about, please leave me alone!”
“Shen Shu!” came a gnashing voice from outside, “Don’t challenge my boundaries! Okay?”
I was on the verge of collapse and yelled at the door, “I said get away from me, get away from me, can’t you hear me?”
“Bang!” The bathroom door rattled with the force of the impact and I took a few steps back in shock.
It was only three strokes before the bathroom door was smashed open and he came in tall and violent, his dark eyes fowl cold as he looked at me cowering next to the bathtub.
“Shen Shu, you ……” Seeing me trembling and looking at him with disgust, his original rising anger dissipated for a few moments.
A long time, he walked beside me, slender and tall figure squatted down, slender fingers slowly reached out to me.
I was afraid he would touch me, and my heart rejected his approach, instinctively speaking, “Don’t touch me!”
His outstretched hand froze in the air, and the coldness on his brow invaded the air around him, “Tell me, what happened?”
“Fu Shen Yan, let’s get a divorce! Can’t we? Let’s divorce, I don’t want anything, as long as you agree to the divorce!” I opened my mouth, my voice already choked to the point of sobbing.
Fu Shen Yan’s already ugly face steeped in gloom, and he looked at me, his cold gaze fixed on my face, “Shen Shu, do you know what you’re saying?”
“I know!” Of course I know, I’ve put up with it for two years, I’ve been aggrieved for two years, but not loving is not loving, and no amount of warmth is love!
Fiercely he yanked my hand and then my whole body was raised by her into the bathroom and placed me on the bed, he pulled the towel around me and then half crouched in front of me, his hands held me in a death grip, tilting his head to look at me, his voice low and suppressed, “Tell me, what happened?”
He was calm, even if I was mouthing off, but he always had a way of calming down.
I shook my head, my eyes already red and my voice hoarse, “Fu Shen Yan, do you love me?” I didn’t know why I was asking this question, but I did.
His body stiffened for a moment, his handsome brows knitted slightly, his deep gaze looking at me, “Shen Shu, love is not just words!”
But you said it to Lu Xinran, my heart ripped raw and I almost yelled the words out.
“What is it if it’s not just talk?” I couldn’t control my tears and my voice choked, “Fu Shen Yan, I know, you don’t love me do you?”
“Shen Shu!” His voice was low and restrained, “Tell me what happened? Why did you suddenly want a divorce, okay?”
“I don’t love you, I really don’t love you at all!” I was still young and had countless opportunities to find someone I loved for the rest of my life, so let’s divorce and set each other free, okay?”
From the time I met Fu Shen Yan, I never thought that one day I would take it upon myself to beg to leave him.
I thought that if I worked hard enough, gave him my heart, my love and my body, that one day he would see it, would turn around and pull me in and tell me that we were living a good life.
But there are so many uncertainties in life that I forgot that there are many things in this world that you can get by your own efforts, but not love.
In one’s life, it’s already a gift from God to meet two people who love each other, and most people can’t ask for it!
The air in the bedroom felt like it was frozen in tiny layers of frost, cold to the bone, and I kept my head down, not looking at him.
After a long time, he took a shallow breath, then his voice was low and cold as he spoke, “Get some rest, and we’ll talk when you’ve calmed down!”
Without giving me any extra conversation, he got up and left the bedroom.
That night, Fu Shen Yan left the villa, and I stayed up all night.
Even so, when the sun came up again, we still had to open our eyes and move on with our lives.
I didn’t sleep well all night and arrived at the office with a tired body. When Han Shuang saw that my face was waxy and not in good shape, she said with some concern, “Mr. Shen, did you stay up late last night reading information? The company is actually not that difficult to audit, you should not have too much pressure on, you are just fine, take care of yourself!”
I nodded, my head was a little buzzed, after reading Fu’s finances, I took a closer look at Qiao’s finances as well.
Seeing that I kept yawning, Han Shuang poured me a cup of coffee and spoke, “By the way, Mr. Shen, is the company’s audit specifically given to ac or credit to do?”